The musings of a male sexist masochist and his favorite waifus

 Everytime I finish a page of coloring RTWP I'm so sick of it. I just want to post it and get rid of it. I'm a bit proud though, 'cause some panels look good. And I can't believe I did something creative, that I think noone has done before? Which is a cool feeling.Then you read a real comic or watch a really good movie or some fantastic piece of music and you feel like jumping into the mines of Moria. No point in trying right? But you still do it, I guess that's what Tolkien did for example. He did not just shit out Fellowship with no effort and preparation and hours upon hours of writing and reading. Noone gets it right the first try right? (I'm not in any way comparing myself to Tolkien lol)

On a side note, if you wonder what my relation to Xena: Warrior Princess is, I haven't watched it since I was nine years old. It's a bit embarrasing actually. I remember she was pretty bad ass. And I borrowed the noun phrase for Robert. Is it called noun phrase? What is it? Gandalf the grey, for example. Is it just a name? 

 

I wonder if this is just a male thing. Why do I love women who know their way around a sword. I don't think I'm alone. Red Sonja, Ghita of Alizarr, Axa (?) and so forth.

 

I think it took off with the publication of Heavy Metal and its adult comics. Having a sexy heroine as a protagonist certainly was appealing to me as a young kid. Sex sells right? Then you grow up, except I did not. I always pick the hot woman in a video game. I've played the Skyrim mods where you play as a half nude amazon with inproper boob and ass size.

I don't think all women despise the strong woman who kills stuff. Like Buffy, she's not too sexualized but she's stupid hot. God damn. 

 

Such a perfect cast. Then I wonder, who was this intended for? Guys like me? I fell for it, for sure. I have a female friend who had the hots for Alyson Hannigan in that show lol.

Really drawn to its extreme of girls with swords is of course something that originated from Japan. But there's no counterpart for it anywhere. It's just babes with swords. Period. It's fucking awesome.

Melona, the pink, cute evil girl (whom you can't see are evil on a first glance), straight up shoots acid from her tits when she fights. Holy cow.

 

Queen's blade 

 I mostly blame the comic Cat Claw by Bane Kerac for inspiring me to make well drawn but shitty comics. I've tried to read the whole thing, it's quite bad. But when I was fourteen, it fucking blew my mind. I read the issue I bought when I was a kid but threw away, and it's like nothing else. Cat Claw is so fucking bad ass when she hops around the town like Spider Man and always get her attire ripped open in a fight. I wonder why? Lol.

Sometimes I reflect upon my fascination of well endowed women that dominates and behaves very masculine. I would not mind being dominated by a woman. In fact, that would be awesome. The first time I made out with a girl I begged her to put a knife to my throat. That was pretty fucked up right? I've yet to try being pegged and all that shit, sometime maybe. It's not a priority right at the moment though. I was happy to see the reactions to the Resident Evil woman, and I how "scary" it was to confront her and being killed? Lol.

 

Cat Claw deserves her own blog post. Which I might be writing in the future.

Now I'm going to eat crisps, drink cola zero and watch bad tv. 

I might do some life drawing to take a break from RTWP. Here's something I did the other month:

 

Life drawing makes me feel like a real artist that's just not thinking about sex all the time. The irony is apparent when I the first choice is to draw naked women. (Remember it's classy art if you don't get a boner! lol)

 Cheers.

Shame and stuff

Shame. It's something I've dealt with a lot. Something I'm tired of. I'd like to accept myself as I am. But yet, it's really hard. I'm struggling with my life right now. Or it's been a struggle all the time, really. I kinda liked childhood, and growing up. Some things sucked then though. Like being told what to do all the time. Anyway, quit rambling now!
I'd like to show some behind the scenes stuff for RTWP. But I don't have a lot right now. But here are some samples.

Weird pose for Afrodite. Not really happy with this one.

Here is a showcase of my process in making a page. It's pretty fast now, takes about 3 hours per page. (It can takes 7 hours or days to finish a page if I really put effort in it, but now I don't give a damn :P )

 This is what a quick draft could look like, although this is way to detailed in this case, I wanted to see if I could make the page in with ink on paper but it turned out to be too cumbersome.

 When I draw over the rough draft I get something kind of like this above.

  

 

This is what the color layer looks like on page 21. I have my tablet pressure determine the opacity of the brush. I set the coloring layer to multiply and use a layer mask to have the panels and "speech bubbles" white. It helps. 

Finished page. 

That's all for today I think. See yaa.

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How Robert the Warrior Princess started

I figured it would be fun to tell you how it all started.

I have drawn a lot in my unfulfilling, empty life. When I was 14 years old, I was certain I wanted to be a cartoonist/comic book artist. Or "serietecknare" in Swedish. Somewhere down the road, I abandoned my dream of becoming a cartoonist.
At the age of 20, I decided to move far away to study graphics in computer games. It really intrigued me then, but I don't think I really knew what I was doing. Besides from partying with nerds and spending time with a good friend who was way more talented than me (in 3D graphics) I actually learned a whole lot about drawing, painting and tablets and photoshop. I really tried hard to get better, practicing a lot by studying other people's art and real life.

Digital painting at the time I started studying game art in 2009.

These images could give you an idea of my progress. You could argue that I used a less advanced Wacom tablet before I started studying but my traditional art skills also improved during this time, thanks to actually studying anatomy and just drawing a lot, all the time. I really enjoyed getting better. 

However, I sucked at 3D and really struggled to keep up. Since concept art is really hard to compete in, I gave up in becoming a graphics artist. I still thought I had some talent and that I could make it on the side of my other career. That never happened. Turns out you need an extraordinary amount of drive, talent and also putting in tons of hours into it. I just didn't had what it took to make it. I started studying architecture and engineering instead.

Digital painting three years after starting computer graphics. (Drawn with photo reference)

I still enjoyed drawing, and when I browsed the conceptart.org forum I found a thread about starting a website for erotic comics, and if you wanted to be on it you could send some pictures. I got a place, which was really exciting. Finally, I could make a little money off of something I was kind of good at, and actually enjoyed. I put a lot of effort into making the comic, not really focusing on making an excellent story but drawing lots of porn. This resulted in the first 10 pages of Robert the Warrior princess and the prologue and cover. I made it all in Photoshop. The cover, I made in Illustrator. As you might notice, those pages are more detailed, more carefully drawn. For example, on the first page and the second panel I used real porn as reference! That's one of the few times I've actually done that.

I took inspiration from Lina Heidenstam's "Maran" (The mare), which I read a couple of years earlier. That comic revived my interest in comics that had been on hiatus for quite some time. I was just totally blown away. It was an erotic comic, beautifully drawn and the story was great. It was supposedly feminist, but mostly in a sexually liberating way and not in the 72 genders way. I had never seen anything like it. Other sources of inspiration was Gilbert Hernandez, Bill Willingham's Ironwood.

At the prospect of earning a few bucks on my fantasy porn, fulfilling my teenage dream and having fun at the same time, I worked day and night doing 12 pages, which took weeks to make. I stayed up all night, had a horrible diet and hardly met other people than my dad. I felt awful. I also felt kind of dirty and perverted. It would be weird to explain what I was doing to other people. "Oh you work a day job? No, I draw porn all day" I had some support from the swedish comics forum. They mostly appreciated the work, and some of them probably still follow the comic. One of them is Åke Rosenius, which is known for drawing a comic parodying Conan the Barbarian which was published in Swedish role playing magazines and still is to this day (It is called Birger Barbaren). Hi Åke, if you are reading this! ;) I saw Åke's illustrations in a table top RPG, and to think that he reads my comic still blows my mind. That is motivation enough to keep the comic going, I think.

Hopefully you are enjoying RTWP if you are on this page. I can confess to you that my motivation has gone down since 2014 when I thought I could make money doing the comic. Now I do it as therapy for my 14 year old self, who never became a cartoonist (Well, I kind of am, not in the way I thought though). I enjoy it of course, but I can't tell most people about it, I would certainly be fired if any employer knew about it. I guess. I also is a bit ashamed of it sometimes. Why would you draw a comic for your own masturbation? Seems to be stretching it. But, I am a proud pervert, and will never stop being perverted! Live perverted or die!

Next time, I will continue to talk about some behind the scenes stuff.

Fan Art by Jay042

Art from creator of the webcomic Kaza's Mate Gwenna. Thanks Jay! :)